The search continues…

I have searched all my life…

Thought many a time that I got it..

Still, life’s playing games with me and I’ve never really got it. Have I almost got it and let it go without realizing that, that was “it”? Nope, never. If I’d know, I’ll know.

What is “it”? I can’t describe what it is… It is a state of mind, probably. Have you ever been figured out completely by some person? Has someone behaved exacly the way you want someone to behave? For me, I’d like to know what it’d be like. To feel the bliss or whatever that comes out of it.

What is my problem? Well… Why is it that nobody gets me? Everybody takes me up to the crest then at some point of time, pushes me back down. I’ve never crossed over(not that way!) to see the other side. Means, they’ll do all the right things at first, and then shatters all the (mis)conceptions that you had of them!

Still, there are people who’re lucky enough to find other people who can read their minds like an open book! If I am jealous of anyone in the world, it is them! I am on a crusade to find that person(s) , whoever he/she is and I’m gonna get that “it” too, though the journey is tiresome!

P.S: I thought that I was a practical person, who lived by what my mind told me. But this proves that I’m not one, at least not all the time…