Been wondering what to write… I no longer feel that I’m doing this because I like it… I sort of feel that I’m obligated to make a blog entry every month… Therefore its not fun anymore…. Maybe if I had access to net a lot more, or if I could find a lot more of peace, privacy and serenity than whats available right now, I could have dedicated more time for blogging… I do remember how much good I felt when thoughts came into my mind just like that….

I was watching the pics I took at the house that we were all staying at, near the college.. They are still lingering in my mind, especially the ones that were taken on the last day… We made a special dinner : Chapathi, Chicken Curry, Gulab jamuns and Chocolate Cake!! We ordered the cake and except that, everything was made by us! It was sort of a farewell party.. We have vacated the house and are day-scholars for the moment… I’m stayin with my aunt at Kottayam.. Its almost and hour from my college, and I’ve to take two buses and a train to reach college.. Its a tough job, but I’m trying to see its positive side… Except for the fact that I’ve not been able to find any till now…. Oh wait.. Thats not totally true.. I do have one…. I don’t have to be around anymore with the one person who I actually started to hate… She’s been drivng me mad for the past two years, and its like she has become my responsibility now… I don’t have to teach [read spoon-feed] her anymore, I don’t have to think about ideas and clothes for her art-plates anymore, I don’t have to worry about wtf is wrong with her when she doesn’t speak to me… Thats probably the one damn thing I’m the happiest about… I mean, wtf was that all about? Coming back from college talking all the way like best buds, and then after 2 or 3 hours at home[sleeping/taking bath], she’s just avoiding eye-contact with me.. Won’t talk to me, won’t listen to me, won’t agree with me even for things which even a rubber-band wouldn’t have a different opinion about…. And if I ask her whats wrong, she’ll say nothing’s wrong… I’m not a mind-reader, for the love of God… I stopped asking whats wrong when this ‘not talking’ thing became less surprising… And I’ve stopped assuming that its something I did.. Anyways, thank God I don’t have to spend another year with her… I cannot totally avoid her.. Coz we’re a gang of four.. We haven’t openly declared this problem, eventhough both of us know about it… Even if I bring it up, she’ll deny it.. So there’s no point.. I think I like her a little bit even now.. And the more time I spend with her, more are the chances for me to lose that liking… So isn’t it the best if we don’t live together ever again….?