A lot of people have been seeing me very lightly lately.. Why is that so? I feel sick and sad inside, though I don’t show it out to them.. Eversince I joined for FT, the chances of acquainting with them have lessened. But I feel like that I’m more available to everybody than I used to be, because I feel some sort of a.. a.. something.. neglect? nope.. disregard? i donno.. might be.. I’m in a terrible state of mind, maybe its something stupid that I’m just imagining.. Maybe their circumstances are to be blamed for this. But coming to think about it, I have been taken very lightly all the time by two or three people, who are so important to me. I just couldn’t afford them to do this to me. I even tried telling it out to one of them. But then, it was either laughed off like a joke(not by me), or the other person would sulk and I’d say that I was just kidding, and then laugh it off like a joke. The little time that I get to connect to them is too precious to be wasted talking about things like this. I know that I’ll get hurt in the end, but then again.. Who cares?