Very sarcastic… Ideally, familiarity should breed concern.. I mean, I should be able to forget all inhibitions while talking with someone I’m very familiar with, rather than be more conscious about it.. Technically, thats how it should be.. Why the question "How many times have I told u that u r not doing it right?"??? Rhetorical, I’ll say… If you’ve said it too many times before, and if there hasn’t been a change till now, maybe you should start realizing that it can’t be changed at all.. But I’m afraid nobody’ll be able to back me up there.. Not that I don’t like to change.. I usually try to make myself appealing to others.. But I’m not bound to change by force other than that of my own.. No obedience? hmm.. Interesting… I’ve never asked that to me! Am I not obedient..? Wow! I’ve no answer to that one!! Well.. I am…atleast…60% obedient.. But I’m a better daughter and sister than what I used to be.. Really… Sometimes I like to irritate people with my behavior just to leave me alone.. I do not take orders. I do not negotiate beyond a certain level (as opposed to the fact that I’m a peace lover). I give in only to one emotion. U wanna bend and fold me? Instead of breeding contempt, try speaking to my heart..

Have u felt unwanted ever in ur life so far? When u r surrounded by ur parents, cousins and even friends….. Have u felt so? If u haven’t, consider urself lucky… If u have, I donno what to tell u… There r times in life, when no matter how much u struggle to be someone, people do not take u seriously…Deep inside, u feel no-one really cares about what u think or what u r.. Well, sometimes, u feel that people don’t even know that u exist.. And no matter how loud u shout, ur screams r unheard.. No matter how bright u dress, people do not notice u.. Times when people see through u… And u know that u ain’t wearing that invisibility cloak..

Have u ever gone through that phase of life?

Have I ever gone through that phase of life?

Maybe… Maybe not…

I wanted Fashion Technology and now I have 24×7 of it…. Did I want this much???

From Monday to Friday, we have the usual class… That reminds me, I had to take a seminar on Tuesday. It was a seminar on the Traditional Textiles of India, and I was taking Tripura. Luckily, Tripura didnt have any textile of its own, so it was like a 5 minute seminar with only 16 slides!! But the previous one about Nagaland, which had a lot of material to be taught and that too by a know-it-all of the class, was really boring and I remember yawning just before my seminar!! The seminar went fine except for the fact that I had given random animations for the bullets, and some of them were real slow ones!! Two or three times, they ‘crawled’ in real slow, and everyone started giggling, including the teacher!!!! :D The next tough task was to pronounce the names of the tribes of Tripura, without making it sound funny! The names were Khakloo, Kuki and Lushei :( Anyways, I am glad that it got over!

On Saturdays, we have the Fashion Art classes. The miss who had been taking Fashion Art for us left the college, and since no-one has replaced her till now, Fashion Art is being taught every Saturday by a sir called Mohamed Ansar (or Ansar Mohamed??) He was a classmate of one of our teachers, when they were in NIFT (that makes him around 30 years old!!). We call that class as ‘Ansar ki paathshala’!!! :P Both the second years and the first years are taught on the same day… Ansar Sir is from Trivandrum, working in Technopark.. He will be there in train with us most times!

Sundays, the only day that we used to get free, is finally taken for the Photography classes.. Its an extra module taken for our own benefit.. It will be of use when we go for our craft documentation (CD). We are woking in groups, the same ones that we are planning to do the CD with. Each group is required to have an SLR camera and a tripod.

Anyways, like I said before, I wanted Fashion Technology so badly and now I am 5′1″ deep in it…!!! Did I want it this much???? Guess I did…!! ;)

March dawned… But never thought it would have dawned like it did…. Coz the first info that I got when I reached college on March 1st was that first sem exams were starting on 14th of this month!! Not to say that I haven’t studied a word, but I don’t even have the text books!!! :P Shalin has them luckily… And from this week onwards, we plan to start studying…. Textile Science and Fashion Business are the two theory papers.. Only two, but really tough….. And who knows, its MG University after all.. So the exams might get postponed too… Anyways.. Not too happy about all these… :(

28 days since my last post.. I want to update, but I donno what to blog about.. Anyways, today I saw Rang De Basanti. A film that I’ve been waiting for just for two reasons..
1) Aamir Khan
2) A R Rahman…. in alphabetical order, no priorities….

But to tell the truth, it didnt invoke any sort of anything in me.. Can’t say that I didn’t like it.. It was an okay sort of film… But I enjoyed “Iqbal” much better! I better be careful when I pass this sort of a comment about the film!! But coming to think about it, the way the film was taken was wonderful.. And it sure is a touching story.. very credible too, like most Aamir Khan movies…

By the way, I lost my beloved airtel mtv simcard. I’ll have to buy a new sim most probably.. The best thing is that all my friends r confused when I send them msgs..!!! I forget everytime to keep my name at the end! When I send msgs that I’ll go to their house at a particular time, they’ll be eagerly waiting at the door to meet the mysterious stranger!!!!

Oh and by the way, I forgot to mention an important thing… I tried riding my bro’s bike on.. err.. I think 26th evening.. I don’t remember exactly.. Anyways, the feel was great!! A bike is certainly supercool than a scooter.. The power.. I could feel it, like a lion ready to pounce on its prey… At first, I got scared as I released the clutch.. So I rode with the sidestand down, but with practice, I was able to keep it steady and smooth.. I started on a pulsar, and i feel strangely proud about it!!!! :P