Archive for September, 2006

Today’s Mood..

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)

I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
‘Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I know it’s not alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I’ll paint it on the walls
‘Cause I’m the one at fault
I’ll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Linkin Park – Breaking The Habit

Holidays…

On a beginning note, I’d like to pray for Ms. Neelima Thampan, our HOD, who passed away on 4th of September. All of us at the department knew that she had some kind of health problems that made her stay single till now.. But we never thought that it would be so serious.. She was just 29 years old, and her death is something that was least expected… May her soul rest in peace..

My Onam vacation started on 1st September. I started my vacation by fighting with Neo!!! It was a good fight and lasted for two days! By the end of the second day of my vacation, I was starting to feel that I was missing something…. I didnt get that festival feeling inside me eventhough Onam was so near… I didnt even get any vacation feeling.. It was like my usual weekends… btw.. On 31st, we had Onam celebrations at college and it sucked big time.. We all were told to be clad in Kerala’s traditional outfit, the set and mundd or set-saree. For what? For absolutely nothing!! I hate walking around when I am wearing saree.. And this time, I had to walk from house (the rented house that I’m living in..) to college… just for the sake of attendence.. thats all… Oh I could have gone without gettin the damn attendence, awrite? The five of us.. Anju, Shalin, Shinu, Sreelekshmi and I were loitering in the department looking for the others. We were expecting everybody to be there, but to our surprise, all the smartasses had already scrammed homewards….. :( So we decided to go back, Shalin and I to the hostel and the others to the auditorium to watch the onam celebrations… Both of us had to vacate hostel that day, which was a tough job esp when one is wearing a tough garment like saree..! Its not anything about saree, its the fact that I am not used to it that makes it difficult to wear it… Anyways, there was a suitcase and a hell lotta plastic bags to carry out.. It contained all my study material like books, sheets, colors and stuff… I was halfway out of the hostel (and somewhat of the saree too, i think!) when some juniors came and helped the poor me..

After we reached the house, we resumed the work in kitchen that we were on from the previous day!! The Onasadya!!! The 7 of us, the sweet inmates of the house had also four guests, 2 girls from our class and 2 others, friends of us… girls.. obviously!!! :P

We had made an Onasadya consisting of rice, sambar, avial, rasam, upperi, paripp, maanga achar, pulissery, pappadam, semiya payasam and pazham neatly spread on a thooshanila!! The sadya was great! We took turns to serve and everybody had enjoyed that day with lots of laughter, fun and food!!

Eversince this day, I never enjoyed like that during my vacation! Didn’t go out anywhere to see the illuminations in the city.. And I really really wanted to get on the giant wheel this time!! Every year this fair comes and in my life, I’ve never been on a giant wheel ever… :(( Tomorrow is the day.. I might go out tomorrow, providing that I finish my work in time… btw.. when did it become my work?? The documentary is supposed to be a team-work and I am the only one out of the five of us wasting my holidays over it.. Well.. not that I’m complaining.. I love movie editing… I have made a pretty good script and hopes to come out with a good documentary..

Anyway, I think this blog’s becoming too long than i expected… So hoping for a nice tomorrow (or today?), I’m goin to sleep! Khuda hafiz!